Long day today....
So it has been a crazy few weeks. Work has been crazy, with 2 people doing the work of 3. We got a new person, but now I have to train her.
So that adds some stress. Today I took a half a day. I had to go to the doctors and there was a memorial service for my daughter and other children that have passed in 2006.
So I went to the doctor and the last time I went was November of 2005. I was curious to see what my weight was and what I weighed in '05.
In November '05, I was 335 lbs and today I weighed in at 326 lbs. So it is good to know I am less then I was in '05. I have to get some tests done, the doctor wants to make sure I do not have diabetes so some tests will be taken to assure that.
I have always been told you are "overweight but healthy". It was nice that my new doctor was a Big Guy as well! He even commented that it was good I was losing weight and was less then last time I was there and that I have made the effort to lose weight.
The day became a bit more emotional; long story short. I am a proud father, however my wife and I had a premature daughter last year and my daughter was only with us for 12 days. 12 wonderful days. The past 9 months have been very emotional. I am an emotional eater, so you can imagine how much food I have consumed. (Hence me ballooning up to 351 lb and doing The Plan).
This afternoon they had a memorial service for all the babies that had passed in the hospital. It was very emotional afternoon and it brings back a lot of the feelings you think you have have gotten past. I did not workout today. I think I have a good excuse. I still ate well.
Tomorrow is another day. Good Night.
So that adds some stress. Today I took a half a day. I had to go to the doctors and there was a memorial service for my daughter and other children that have passed in 2006.
So I went to the doctor and the last time I went was November of 2005. I was curious to see what my weight was and what I weighed in '05.
In November '05, I was 335 lbs and today I weighed in at 326 lbs. So it is good to know I am less then I was in '05. I have to get some tests done, the doctor wants to make sure I do not have diabetes so some tests will be taken to assure that.
I have always been told you are "overweight but healthy". It was nice that my new doctor was a Big Guy as well! He even commented that it was good I was losing weight and was less then last time I was there and that I have made the effort to lose weight.
The day became a bit more emotional; long story short. I am a proud father, however my wife and I had a premature daughter last year and my daughter was only with us for 12 days. 12 wonderful days. The past 9 months have been very emotional. I am an emotional eater, so you can imagine how much food I have consumed. (Hence me ballooning up to 351 lb and doing The Plan).
This afternoon they had a memorial service for all the babies that had passed in the hospital. It was very emotional afternoon and it brings back a lot of the feelings you think you have have gotten past. I did not workout today. I think I have a good excuse. I still ate well.
Tomorrow is another day. Good Night.
PS. It's ON with the BIG FatOff Challenge!!
1 comment:
Biggie- I can only imagine what you and the missus have gone through this year, and in my imagination it's like losing a limb. At first horribly painful, crippling, and disruptive of every single thing in your life such that you can't brush your teeth without everything feeling wrong. Over time something you can live with albeit with a constant reminder- not that you could ever forget. And on occasion unexpected phantom pains force you to relive the loss, and grieve for the piece of you that is missing, and deal with the empty ache in it's place.
But if Heather Mills can live without a leg and go on to such great things as divorcing a Beatle and being on Dancing With the Stars, I can only imagine that you guys will continue to live with and through your grief and over time find a place in your life where the sadness can coexist with new joy.
Hang in there, and if you need to binge... maybe wait until challenge week? ;-)
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